Saturday, December 29, 2012
Ted Schaefer, Poet and Colleague, R.I.P.
It's been a couple of weeks since I heard the sad news that my former colleague, the poet Ted Schaefer, had left us. He was a good and generous teacher, and he always indulged me when I'd drop by his office unannounced and hang out, leaning in his doorway and asking him about his time in the army, his work as a former cartoonist, and, of course, about poetry. I learned a lot from him, including a thing or two about patience.
He wrote two books—After Drought and The Summer People—and published poems everywhere from the the old Saturday Review to the Village Voice. But the poem that came to mind when I heard of his passing was a little one I'd run across in a 1974 issue of Intro back when I was a grad student and worked in Chicago's great, much missed Aspidistra Bookshop. It was a journal associated with the AWP and published by Anchor Books, and it took me a while to get my hands on another copy:
Ed's Cafe: He's Dead
I
The coffee
Perks in the urns.
The forktips sing away.
A dawn hits
Ed's widow.
I hear
The breadman, and
II
"I want a red casket.
With blue flowers,"
I hear the woman say.
"I want to be buried
On a real bright
Shiny day..."
I'm sure Ted will be remembered with affection and gratitude by many, including his former students—among whom, in a way informal but real, I number.
Friday, December 28, 2012
The Plonsker Prize: $10,000, Your Book Published, and Two Months to Write at Lake Forest College
In A Room of One's Own Virginia Woolf famously said that a writer who hoped to succeed needed £500 a year and private room in which to write. A Room of One's Own came out in 1929, when £500 would get you $807. If the most easily Google-able online inflation calculator is any guide, that $807 translates into just over $10,000 in today's currency—a handy sum for any aspiring writer, to be sure, and a sum that just happens to equal the prize money given out by Lake Forest College in our annual Madeleine P. Plonsker Emerging Writer's Residency Prize. In a turn Woolf would surely appreciate, the prize also comes with a room of one's own in which to write—several of them, in fact, in the form of a suite at the Glen Rowan House, where the winning poet is bound to run into some interesting people visiting the college (here's the actual suite).
The prize is open to writers under 40 who have yet to publish a first book (chapbooks and other small publications don't disqualify an applicant). The residency includes meals and comes with no teaching or other duties—it's just time to write. The prize alternates between poets and fiction writers—and the winner will read as part of the Lake Forest Literary Festival.
The residency takes place during the spring semester. Applications for the 2014 residency begin on January first of 2013. There is no fee to apply.
The judging panel consists of myself, Davis Schneiderman, and Joshua Corey, along with a guest judge. Guidelines and a link to an online submission form are available here. If you and your work fit the criteria outlined on the site, I do hope you'll apply.
Sunday, December 23, 2012
Christmas - Moments of Joy
In two more sleeps it will be Christmas 2012. Bella has been counting on her fingers and reminds me every half hour. Her Dad took her to buy presents for everyone and she can't wait for people to open them. (Even though each person already know what she's bought for them because she accidentally whispered it super loud when that person was standing right there...) She keeps reminding me what Santa needs. What his reindeer need. She wants to know when are we going to bake Christmas cookies and deliver them to all our friends? (Yes, yes I am aware that this family has yet to bake a damn thing this December and very soon, if I'm not careful - the Christmas Baking Gift Delivery will become the Happy New Year's Baking Delivery....or the Valentines Day baking Gift Delivery...So whats your point?! ) She is excited and happy. And that is the way it should be. Because she's five years old and that's what a child should feel at this time of year.
But I'm not really feeling excited and happy. I'm still sad that families in Connecticut, USA are having funerals for twenty children the same age and size as my Bella because somebody shot them in their elementary school with a military style assault rifle. And lots of other children the same age and size as my Bella who were in that same school that day had to endure that experience.
And I'm sad that at home in Samoa, so many families are still camping in evacuation centers because their homes got wiped out in Cyclone Evan. Some are mourning the loss of loved ones. Some are trying to salvage their personal belongings - and have to see neighbors walking past wearing their clothes, making off with their tools and appliances. 'Finders keepers, losers weepers.' I'm sad that so many small businesses are still cleaning out the mud and sewage from their stores, racking up all the losses from this disaster and trying not to go bankrupt, trying to decide whether or not they have the resources, the will to rebuild. To try again. Businesses like Coaches Corner, Pacific Jewell, JN Woodworkers and so many more. I'm sad that some homes still have no running water or electricity and I'm worried to hear about the growing number of typhoid cases.
So yes, two more sleeps to Christmas and there is much to be sad about. This will be a more restrained celebration this year. No excesses. Or over-the-top frivolous stuff. It doesnt feel right to drown in food and gifts and festive gatherings - when so many are facing great challenges. Instead, I am sad, and in that sadness, I am reflective. I am grateful.
Why?
Because this week my little sister had a baby. There were some complications after the birth and my sister required surgery but she and the baby are home now, resting and recovering. I haven't met my new niece yet because they live in the Cook Islands, but as I look at the photo of this child, so perfectly beautiful and serene in her newness - I am grateful. For the reminder that even though lots of bad things happen, life can still be entangled with moments of joy. Sacredness. For the reminder that Christmas (for many) is about honoring the birth and precious gift of another baby, born long ago with a divine mission. So yes, there may not have been any herald angels singing over the Cook Islands for Emaraina - but she reminded me of celestial glory.
Because shortly after finding out that his daughter Emilie was one of the victims in the Sandy Hook shooting, Robert Parker, made this statement of love and compassion, "I'd like to offer our deepest condolences to all the families who were directly affected...this includes the family of the shooter and I want you to know that our love and support go out to you as well...my daughter would be one of the first ones giving her love and support to all of the victims because that's the kind of person she is." I don't know if I could have that kind of strength, testimony and forgiveness had that been Bella. His example moves me. Reminds me that in the face of darkness, it is still possible to see the light - if one is looking for it - with faith and an eternal perspective. A grassroots campaign started this week on Twitter and has spread to many parts of the world called #26Acts of Kindness where individuals commit to rendering 'random' acts of service and generosity in memory of the slain, with only the plea to "Pass it Forward". I've been tracking some of the service acts as they are posted online and they are diverse and widespread. Meaningful. Parker made an emotional plea for that spirit to be the legacy of this tragedy. "Let it not turn into something that defines us, but something that inspires us to be better, to be more compassionate, and more humble people." I am grateful for this reminder.
Because after they lost everything in the cyclone and only escaped with their lives by climbing on the roof with their small children - Vanessa Nieuwenhuizen wrote, "We are starting to feel that Heavenly Father has a better plan for us. We so appreciate all your prayers....love and concerns. We really do. We no longer cry over the things we have lost...instead...we cry because of the immense support from all of you. So thank you. In return, I express great love and continue to pray for Heaven's blessings to be upon each of you. Here's us Wishing you all the happiness in this Festive Season!" It is this kind of spirit that weathers storms, carries one through trials and makes it possible to still hope for the joy of a Christ-focused Christmas. I am grateful for this reminder.
Because of these things, I will rejoice in my daughter's happiness this Christmas as she hangs up stockings and puts out carrots for reindeer. I will watch her eyes light up when she helps her brother open her gift to him - because she cant stand to wait another minute for him to (pretend) to be surprised and super-gleeful about the deoderant she bought for him. And I will smile a lot when children make a mess opening presents and make lots of noise playing with them.
But most of all, in two more sleeps, I will be grateful for the sacred opportunity to be a mother and to have my husband and children with me in peaceful, safe surroundings. Grateful for the gift of the Savior. Grateful for all that reminds us to be better, more compassionate and more humble people.
It is my hope and wish that your Christmas be the same.
Manuia le Kerisimasi.
O Holy Night - A Song for Your Christmas
But I'm not really feeling excited and happy. I'm still sad that families in Connecticut, USA are having funerals for twenty children the same age and size as my Bella because somebody shot them in their elementary school with a military style assault rifle. And lots of other children the same age and size as my Bella who were in that same school that day had to endure that experience.
And I'm sad that at home in Samoa, so many families are still camping in evacuation centers because their homes got wiped out in Cyclone Evan. Some are mourning the loss of loved ones. Some are trying to salvage their personal belongings - and have to see neighbors walking past wearing their clothes, making off with their tools and appliances. 'Finders keepers, losers weepers.' I'm sad that so many small businesses are still cleaning out the mud and sewage from their stores, racking up all the losses from this disaster and trying not to go bankrupt, trying to decide whether or not they have the resources, the will to rebuild. To try again. Businesses like Coaches Corner, Pacific Jewell, JN Woodworkers and so many more. I'm sad that some homes still have no running water or electricity and I'm worried to hear about the growing number of typhoid cases.
So yes, two more sleeps to Christmas and there is much to be sad about. This will be a more restrained celebration this year. No excesses. Or over-the-top frivolous stuff. It doesnt feel right to drown in food and gifts and festive gatherings - when so many are facing great challenges. Instead, I am sad, and in that sadness, I am reflective. I am grateful.
Why?
Because this week my little sister had a baby. There were some complications after the birth and my sister required surgery but she and the baby are home now, resting and recovering. I haven't met my new niece yet because they live in the Cook Islands, but as I look at the photo of this child, so perfectly beautiful and serene in her newness - I am grateful. For the reminder that even though lots of bad things happen, life can still be entangled with moments of joy. Sacredness. For the reminder that Christmas (for many) is about honoring the birth and precious gift of another baby, born long ago with a divine mission. So yes, there may not have been any herald angels singing over the Cook Islands for Emaraina - but she reminded me of celestial glory.
Because shortly after finding out that his daughter Emilie was one of the victims in the Sandy Hook shooting, Robert Parker, made this statement of love and compassion, "I'd like to offer our deepest condolences to all the families who were directly affected...this includes the family of the shooter and I want you to know that our love and support go out to you as well...my daughter would be one of the first ones giving her love and support to all of the victims because that's the kind of person she is." I don't know if I could have that kind of strength, testimony and forgiveness had that been Bella. His example moves me. Reminds me that in the face of darkness, it is still possible to see the light - if one is looking for it - with faith and an eternal perspective. A grassroots campaign started this week on Twitter and has spread to many parts of the world called #26Acts of Kindness where individuals commit to rendering 'random' acts of service and generosity in memory of the slain, with only the plea to "Pass it Forward". I've been tracking some of the service acts as they are posted online and they are diverse and widespread. Meaningful. Parker made an emotional plea for that spirit to be the legacy of this tragedy. "Let it not turn into something that defines us, but something that inspires us to be better, to be more compassionate, and more humble people." I am grateful for this reminder.
Because after they lost everything in the cyclone and only escaped with their lives by climbing on the roof with their small children - Vanessa Nieuwenhuizen wrote, "We are starting to feel that Heavenly Father has a better plan for us. We so appreciate all your prayers....love and concerns. We really do. We no longer cry over the things we have lost...instead...we cry because of the immense support from all of you. So thank you. In return, I express great love and continue to pray for Heaven's blessings to be upon each of you. Here's us Wishing you all the happiness in this Festive Season!" It is this kind of spirit that weathers storms, carries one through trials and makes it possible to still hope for the joy of a Christ-focused Christmas. I am grateful for this reminder.
Because of these things, I will rejoice in my daughter's happiness this Christmas as she hangs up stockings and puts out carrots for reindeer. I will watch her eyes light up when she helps her brother open her gift to him - because she cant stand to wait another minute for him to (pretend) to be surprised and super-gleeful about the deoderant she bought for him. And I will smile a lot when children make a mess opening presents and make lots of noise playing with them.
But most of all, in two more sleeps, I will be grateful for the sacred opportunity to be a mother and to have my husband and children with me in peaceful, safe surroundings. Grateful for the gift of the Savior. Grateful for all that reminds us to be better, more compassionate and more humble people.
It is my hope and wish that your Christmas be the same.
Manuia le Kerisimasi.
O Holy Night - A Song for Your Christmas
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
What I Read While They Were Writing
Lake Forest College, where I’ve been teaching for something like sixteen years, minus sabbaticals and a visiting year in Sweden, prides itself on its warm and fuzzy, get to know you by the name, scale model of an ordinary university, liberal arts college intimacy. Generally, I think this is a great thing. I used to get a bit miffed about the fact that professors proctor their own exams, though: shouldn’t we be out pushing back the frontiers of human knowledge in our research,” I’d grumble to myself, “rather than looking at the parts in fifteen students’ hair as they hunch over their blue exam books, scribbling furiously?” But that was all before my daughter was born. Now that I have a small kid around (delight though she is), I find the three hours of silence less of a bore and more of a respite. It’s a great chance to haul a pile of books, journals, and electronic reading gizmos into a room and browse around aimlessly, like I used to do for an hour or two every morning.
I’ve had two exams to proctor this semester. Here are the highlights from six hours of desultory reading. Some are things I agree with, some are things I just found striking or provocative or admired as feats of style. For whatever reason, they’re the passages I felt drawn to enough to copy them out in my Moleskine while my students sweated out their answers about Virginia Woolf or Thomas DeQuincey.
One of the things I’ve been focused on is the state of American higher education, particularly the advent of what I’ve called the ‘post-welfare-state university’ and its protocols of privatization, which have extracted greater profit from research under the trust of universities, greater labor from the teaching force, and a greater pound of flesh from students, especially in the form of student debt.
—Jeffrey J. Williams, “Long Island Intellectual”
If one had no acquaintance with other poetry than Mr. Ashbery’s, one would believe there were nothing more to the art than a vague, somewhat precious and connoisseurish liking for words and the puzzle interest of working them into difficult patterns.
—from James Dickey’s 1957 review of Some Trees
On parent knees, a naked new-born child,
Weeping thou sat'st, while all around thee smil'd:
So live, that sinking to thy life's last sleep,
Calm thou may'st smile, while all around thee weep.
—Sir William Jones, “Epigram”
The starting point of critical elaboration is the consciousness one is… a product of the historical process to date, which has deposited in you an infinity of traces.
—from Antonio Gramsci’s Prison Notebooks
The story of St. Wystan is recorded in a Little Guide to Shropshire, under the entry of Wistanow, the place in the county where he was martyred. The author of the Little Guide was Wystan Auden’s uncle, the Rev. J.E. Auden, and Wystan carefully preserved his own copy of it. He was very possessive about his first name; he said he would be “furious” if he ever met another Wystan.
—from Humphrey Carpenter’s W.H. Auden: A Biography
Not only does democracy make each man forget his ancestors, it hides his descendants from him, and divides him from his contemporaries; it continually turns him back into himself, and threatens, at last, to enclose him entirely in the solitude of his own heart.
—from Alexis de Tocqueville, Democracy in America
Few crimes are more harshly forbidden in the Old Testament than sacrifice to the god Moloch (for which see Leviticus 18.21, 20.1-5). The sacrifice referred to was of living children consumed in the fires of offering to Moloch. Ever since then, worship of Moloch has been the sign of a deeply degraded culture. Ancient Romans justified the destruction of Carthage by noting that children were sacrificed to Moloch there….The gun is our Moloch. We sacrifice children to him daily…
—Gary Wills, “Our Moloch”
Saturday, December 15, 2012
James Bond is no longer a Greek God, he’s Jesus: Notes on Skyfall
The first thing to notice about James Bond is that he’s a god. I’m not talking about the James Bond of Ian Fleming’s novels, and I’m not talking about the James Bond of the most recent film, Skyfall—a film that makes the most significant departure from the cinematic tradition of James Bond in the history of the franchise. I’m talking about the James Bond most of us know: the Bond we watched in the movie theaters, on video tape, on DVD, on late night television and in any of a thousand forms of streaming video, from Dr. No in 1962 to Quantum of Solacein 2008. This is a Bond who doesn’t stumble around like a mere mortal, growing from inadequacy to adequacy, learning new things both true and false, fumbling to make a path for himself in the world, to find a place where he fits, to build something like a family or a life’s work that can itself start to grow and falter. In fact, a good part of this Bond’s appeal is that he doesn’t have to do any of that messy stuff.
We can get a good sense of the Bond of cinematic tradition if we think of him as less like the protagonist of a novel, and more like a figure out of mythology. In its classic manifestations, the novel offers us protagonists who grow and change. Sometimes they change externally, seeking and finding a place for themselves in the world, Horatio Alger style (all of those orphans traipsing around the nineteenth century novel are placeless people seeking some kind of belonging). Often, especially in the bildungsroman, we get to watch the characters’ ethical growth: Huck Finn has his great “All right then, I’ll go to hell” moment, rejecting the ideology of shore-based society for a dream of friendship conceived on his river journeys with Jim; Jane Eyre learns to balance her fiery, passionate desires with her self-possession. Sometimes we get to watch the slow, faltering development of some skill or social ability, as we do when we see James Joyce’s Stephen Dedalus slowly learn the art of language (from his lisping childhood to his pretentious display of literary theory) and the way to relate to women (from a full-on case of pathological virgin/whore dichotomy to a somewhat less virulent case of the same, perhaps in remission). In any case, the real action of a great many novels is to be found in watching the protagonist learn, grow, and change. All of this is in contradistinction to the way certain characters—the gods—tend to operate in mythology. If the classic protagonist of a novel is a creature of becoming, the gods in mythology are creatures of pure being. That is, they are what they are, and will be for eternity. Ares doesn’t grow and learn and change, nor does he seek his true home, nor does Dionysus, nor does Athena : they embody certain traits: indeed, they represent those traits, and it wouldn’t make sense for them to lose or modify their warlikeness, their indulgentness, or their rationality. How could we speak of a Dionysian experience if Dionysus went to A.A. and learned the twelve steps of self-reinvention? This seems to be true of mythology across cultures: Loki never changes in the tales Norse mythology; nor does Tiki in the Polynesian mythological cycles.
Like the gods of mythology, the classic film Bond never has to grow or learn or seek out a place. When we see him engaged in training exercises during the opening sequences of several of the films, he’s never really in the process of acquiring new skills: he’s merely performing feats of the sort we already know he can perform: there are no surprises—instead, there’s an affirmation of the traits we already attribute to Bond: awesomeness in physical combat; cleverness in improvisation; coolheaded aloofness; and a propensity to collect the women who fall, swooningly, into his arms. It’s great. And we’d feel betrayed if he actually had to pick up new ideas and master new things: the whole point of him, like the whole point of, say, Zeus, is that he’s already the perfect master of what he does and who he is. We’d also feel very strange if he was in any significant way haunted by a past he needs to overcome, unable to allow himself the pleasures of Pussy Galore because of some hang-ups about Honey Rider. The film Bond does not carry any real wounds from one film to another, physical or psychological. With only very minor exceptions, he’s an episodic figure, the film Bond, not a cumulative one: more at home in a cycle of mythological tales than in the cohesive, ends-oriented narrative of a novel.
It is significant, I think, that the James Bond familiar to readers of Ian Fleming’s novels is much more like a classic novelistic hero than is the mythological Bond of the films. Judith Roof, the sharpest writer on Bond to have trod this earth, puts it succinctly. In the novels, she says, “Ian Fleming’s Bond character does evolve; he reacts, learns, carries with him the lessons of his own traumatic history. The Dr. No Bond remembers painfully Diamonds Are Forever’sTiffany Case. Bond’s body and mind become increasingly scarred…. The literary character James Bond, however, is not coterminous with the cultural Bond figure…” In contrast, we have the cinematic Bond, whom Roof describes as “a creature of almost pathological consistency.” Unlike in the novels, the Bond of film “appears as if it [Roof uses “it” rather than “he,” to emphasize the semiotic nature of the Bond figure] always knew everything — as if it was spawned with skills intact and little memory of past tortures which have no cumulative effect on him.” Spawned with skills intact and little memory—one could say this of Aphrodite as easily as of the cinematic Bond.
But we can’t really make this kind of statement about the Bond of Skyfall, the film that marks the fiftieth anniversary of Bond as a cinematic phenomenon. As Bond himself puts it early in the movie, the character is all about resurrection.
Skyfall’s beginning sequence already gives us something different from the typical Bond opening. Where we’re used to seeing a kind of set-piece or overture in which Bond’s immutable awesomeness is, once again, made plain, this time we see Bond falter and, more significantly, die. His fellow agent (we later learn she’s Moneypenny) is ordered to shoot at Bond’s opponent even as he wrestles with Bond on top of a moving train. She hesitates, saying she has no good shot, but on orders from M, who feels there is too much at stake to risk not shooting, she fires, hitting Bond and knocking him off the train. He falls a great distance into a river, is washed down a waterfall, and disappears. He fails for to reappear, and back in England, he is assumed dead, his obituary written, his flat and belongings sold off. When we see him again, we’re not told how he survived—and this is significant, because in some sense he did not survive, he was resurrected.
Much in the film makes Bond out to be human and frail, in ways alien to the Bond of cinematic tradition. We see Bond accumulate new scars that do not heal; we see him fail his tests in marksmanship, physical fitness, and psychological readiness for duty; we hear of the early death of his parents, and of unspecified, unresolved psychological wounds stemming from that loss. We often see him from behind as he stands in a posture much like that of Caspar David Freidrich’s Wanderer Among the Clouds: a figure part defiance, part inwardness, and part vulnerability, not the clear-eyed, swaggering man Sean Connery played.
It’s not only a humanized Bond we see in Skyfall: it’s quite explicitly a Christ figure. Not only does he die and rise: one of the main themes of Skyfall is Bond’s ability to love and forgive those who have sinned against him. There’s a foil to Bond in Skyfall, a villain named Silva. Silva, like Bond, was sacrificed by M in the name of a greater goal for the agency, and he lives to wreak vengeance on her. His elaborate scheme involves making M feel afraid, and repeatedly urging her to “think on her sins,” including, of course, the sin of sacrificing him. Silva refers to M as “mother,” and there’s a parent-hate here a little like that of Milton’s Satan, and a lot like that of Mary Shelley’s creature in Frankenstein. But the main thing is his refusal to forgive the woman he clearly loved as a mother. Bond has a similar relationship to M: deep affection, even love, and anger at having been betrayed and sacrificed for a mission. But unlike Silva, Bond forgives those who have sinned against him, and is ready to sacrifice himself again to save them. When M finally does die, the Christ parallels are underlined by the posture in which Bond holds her: it is a reversed Pietà, with Bond in the Mary position and M in the position of the agony-wracked, dead Christ. He embodies pity and love and compassion for someone who, in her human frailty and uncertainty, ordered violence against him.
The name of the film refers to the Bond family estate, the scene of the trauma to which he returns (it was where Bond’s parents were murdered). But it’s also a symbolic name, since the Bond that we see in Skyfallis a Bond taken from the realm of the gods and brought down into the human world, with human frailties. He is now, for the first time in the history of Bond film, not a god per se but a god made flesh, and vulnerable, and capable of loving and forgiving those who caused him pain. No longer a Greek God, and certainly not a bearded father-God from the old testament tradition, this Bond is a Christ. And he may just resurrect the franchise.
Sunday, December 9, 2012
I am Wild Warrior Woman. Hear me Roar.
The Bella Beast wanted a dog for her birthday. I said hell no, I have five kids - I dont want to look after six. Because Ive been a mother long enough to know thats what happens when you get a pet. It becomes the mother's responsibility to feed it, wash it, deflea it and love it.
But then the Hot Man was scrolling through dog ads on some cutesie pet website and up pops pictures of a Siberian Huskie. And my heart catches fire. And I am swept away with longing. Weak with willingness to befriend a Siberian Husky with blue eyes. I am reminded of Jack London books that entranced me as a child, 'Call of the Wild' and 'White Fang'. Books with wolf dogs in them. Wild, fierce, beautiful wolf dogs. And I wanted one. Desperately. Because then I wouldnt be a shy, quiet, nerdy girl with no social skills. No, with a Siberian Husky dog by my side, I would be a confident, kickass, wild warrior woman who people were alternately scared of and fascinated by!
I announce to the Hot Man and the teenagers, "We should get Bella a dog. Like this. A Siberian Husky. Thats what she needs. Thats what she wants." Mothers lie sometimes to get what they want. In case you didnt know.
They are bemused by my change of heart. But we do some research. Do you know these dogs are so intelligent they can open doors, open the fridge, climb over a chain link fence, do the laundry and scrub the bathroom? (ok, maybe the last two are an exagerration. Whatever) Did you know Siberian Husky dog owners enter their dogs in sled races? And huskies have to be taken for looooooong runs everyday because they are so energetic and strong? I tell the Hot Man, that IF i had a Husky, I would go for 10K runs every day. Just me and my husky. I can see it now....both of us, running along as fit and fierce creatures, beauty in motion, tireless, relentless. Just think how athletic and toned I would be, IF I had a husky? Maybe we would get a sled! I could enter Sled races! How super exciting is that?! Me and my Sled dog team...barreling through the white wilderness, defying the elements, at one with the universe! (Yes, I am aware there is no snow in West Auckland, thank you Dream-Killer. Keep your horrible thoughts to yourself.) Ohmigosh, me and my Husky team could enter the Iditarod Trail Sled Dog Race from Anchorage to Nome! We could be hanging out with Balto!I could be like Pocohantas! (No, wrong movie.)
I want a husky, dammit. I want it now. But its not looking good. Siberian Huskies in NZ cost at least $1000. And eat like wolves. I cannot afford a dog like this. I would have to sell a kidney to buy it. And the other kidney so i could feed it.
I am bereft. And then I find an ad that wants to GIVE AWAY three Siberian Husky puppies. Adorable, fluffy white puppies with piercing blue eyes. It's too good to be true! I email the man. He emails back. He's elderly, sick, about to have an operation. He loves his puppies with all his sickly heart but can't give them the attention they need. He only wants them to have a good home. I email him my condolences about his operation, his illness, his sadness. I offer MY good home for his puppies. I tell the Hot Man and the teenagers. We have to spell the word D-O-G so that Bella doesnt know what we're planning. Big Son is excited. He sends the pics to all his friends. (I think Big Son has visions of himself taking Siberian Huskies for a 10k run. Where he's shirtless. With rippling muscles. And together him and the Husky are the epitome of wild warriors.)
Big Daughter starts making a list of possible names for the dogs. Umm...excuse me? These are MY dogs, thank you very much. She wants to call one, "Snowflake". Umm... are you out of your mind? My Husky is not a fluffball of fluffiness. My Husky is ferocious and loyal and warriorlike. Like me ( in my mind.) My Husky is going to be called, "Blade". Or "Fang". Or "Erik" the True Blood viking. Or "Stormblade."
We are making excited plans for our new dogs when Little Daughter interrupts us, "What's a D-O-G?"
We all roll our eyes at her atrocious grasp of spelling. (The child is ten.) And then i get an email from the dog owner. Bad news - he lives in Napier. While we live in Auckland. But dont worry, he can send the dogs to us via a pet transport company! All we have to do is pay $395 direct to the Pet Transport people and he will send us the dogs ASAP. What a small price to pay for me to have my very own husky dog sled team. I'm already planning my outfit. For when Im a dog sled woman. I'm thinking steel grey and red ski suit... And then the Hot Man jokes, "It sounds a bit like one of those Nigerian money scams. Wouldnt it be funny if this were a trick?"
Me and my Sled dog team don't think its funny. But I go ahead and google the Pet Transport company.
It doesnt exist. Anywhere on Google.
Me and my Sled Dog team come to a crashing halt. I email the man to ask him about the company. He emails me back with a link to pay for the transport bill. I have to pay by Western Union. To an account in the UKRAINE.
Me and my Sled Dog team go over a snow-topped cliff. Crash.
I email the man querying why the NZ Pet transport company (that doesnt exist in any business directory) has an account in the freakin Ukraine? He emails back a completely implausible story. Almost as implausible as a person who wants to give away THREE dogs that cost one thousand dollars each, to complete strangers.
I am beyond enraged. I am a wolf who wants to rip out this scammer's throat. But its no use. Because he's thousands of miles away. In the Ukraine. And not even a Siberian Husky dog sled team can reach him.
I dont send any money to the Ukraine. I dont get a Siberian Husky. Or three. We buy Bella a bike for her birthday instead.
What have we learned from this?
1. I don't need a Siberian Husky to be a Wild Warrior Woman. If dog-scammers read blogs, read this: One day I WILL get to the Ukraine. And when I do? Be afraid. Be very afraid.
2. I need to spend less time writing and more time teaching Little Daughter how to spell.
3. You shouldnt try to get things for free. Not even dream dogs.
4. The only way I'm getting a Siberian Husky dog is if Santa brings me one.
5. If something is too good to be true? Then it's not true.
But then the Hot Man was scrolling through dog ads on some cutesie pet website and up pops pictures of a Siberian Huskie. And my heart catches fire. And I am swept away with longing. Weak with willingness to befriend a Siberian Husky with blue eyes. I am reminded of Jack London books that entranced me as a child, 'Call of the Wild' and 'White Fang'. Books with wolf dogs in them. Wild, fierce, beautiful wolf dogs. And I wanted one. Desperately. Because then I wouldnt be a shy, quiet, nerdy girl with no social skills. No, with a Siberian Husky dog by my side, I would be a confident, kickass, wild warrior woman who people were alternately scared of and fascinated by!
I announce to the Hot Man and the teenagers, "We should get Bella a dog. Like this. A Siberian Husky. Thats what she needs. Thats what she wants." Mothers lie sometimes to get what they want. In case you didnt know.
They are bemused by my change of heart. But we do some research. Do you know these dogs are so intelligent they can open doors, open the fridge, climb over a chain link fence, do the laundry and scrub the bathroom? (ok, maybe the last two are an exagerration. Whatever) Did you know Siberian Husky dog owners enter their dogs in sled races? And huskies have to be taken for looooooong runs everyday because they are so energetic and strong? I tell the Hot Man, that IF i had a Husky, I would go for 10K runs every day. Just me and my husky. I can see it now....both of us, running along as fit and fierce creatures, beauty in motion, tireless, relentless. Just think how athletic and toned I would be, IF I had a husky? Maybe we would get a sled! I could enter Sled races! How super exciting is that?! Me and my Sled dog team...barreling through the white wilderness, defying the elements, at one with the universe! (Yes, I am aware there is no snow in West Auckland, thank you Dream-Killer. Keep your horrible thoughts to yourself.) Ohmigosh, me and my Husky team could enter the Iditarod Trail Sled Dog Race from Anchorage to Nome! We could be hanging out with Balto!
I want a husky, dammit. I want it now. But its not looking good. Siberian Huskies in NZ cost at least $1000. And eat like wolves. I cannot afford a dog like this. I would have to sell a kidney to buy it. And the other kidney so i could feed it.
I am bereft. And then I find an ad that wants to GIVE AWAY three Siberian Husky puppies. Adorable, fluffy white puppies with piercing blue eyes. It's too good to be true! I email the man. He emails back. He's elderly, sick, about to have an operation. He loves his puppies with all his sickly heart but can't give them the attention they need. He only wants them to have a good home. I email him my condolences about his operation, his illness, his sadness. I offer MY good home for his puppies. I tell the Hot Man and the teenagers. We have to spell the word D-O-G so that Bella doesnt know what we're planning. Big Son is excited. He sends the pics to all his friends. (I think Big Son has visions of himself taking Siberian Huskies for a 10k run. Where he's shirtless. With rippling muscles. And together him and the Husky are the epitome of wild warriors.)
Big Daughter starts making a list of possible names for the dogs. Umm...excuse me? These are MY dogs, thank you very much. She wants to call one, "Snowflake". Umm... are you out of your mind? My Husky is not a fluffball of fluffiness. My Husky is ferocious and loyal and warriorlike. Like me ( in my mind.) My Husky is going to be called, "Blade". Or "Fang". Or "Erik" the True Blood viking. Or "Stormblade."
We are making excited plans for our new dogs when Little Daughter interrupts us, "What's a D-O-G?"
We all roll our eyes at her atrocious grasp of spelling. (The child is ten.) And then i get an email from the dog owner. Bad news - he lives in Napier. While we live in Auckland. But dont worry, he can send the dogs to us via a pet transport company! All we have to do is pay $395 direct to the Pet Transport people and he will send us the dogs ASAP. What a small price to pay for me to have my very own husky dog sled team. I'm already planning my outfit. For when Im a dog sled woman. I'm thinking steel grey and red ski suit... And then the Hot Man jokes, "It sounds a bit like one of those Nigerian money scams. Wouldnt it be funny if this were a trick?"
Me and my Sled dog team don't think its funny. But I go ahead and google the Pet Transport company.
It doesnt exist. Anywhere on Google.
Me and my Sled Dog team come to a crashing halt. I email the man to ask him about the company. He emails me back with a link to pay for the transport bill. I have to pay by Western Union. To an account in the UKRAINE.
Me and my Sled Dog team go over a snow-topped cliff. Crash.
I email the man querying why the NZ Pet transport company (that doesnt exist in any business directory) has an account in the freakin Ukraine? He emails back a completely implausible story. Almost as implausible as a person who wants to give away THREE dogs that cost one thousand dollars each, to complete strangers.
I am beyond enraged. I am a wolf who wants to rip out this scammer's throat. But its no use. Because he's thousands of miles away. In the Ukraine. And not even a Siberian Husky dog sled team can reach him.
I dont send any money to the Ukraine. I dont get a Siberian Husky. Or three. We buy Bella a bike for her birthday instead.
What have we learned from this?
1. I don't need a Siberian Husky to be a Wild Warrior Woman. If dog-scammers read blogs, read this: One day I WILL get to the Ukraine. And when I do? Be afraid. Be very afraid.
2. I need to spend less time writing and more time teaching Little Daughter how to spell.
3. You shouldnt try to get things for free. Not even dream dogs.
4. The only way I'm getting a Siberian Husky dog is if Santa brings me one.
5. If something is too good to be true? Then it's not true.
Friday, December 7, 2012
Us vs. Them: Poetry and the Limits of Binary Thinking
Experimental vs. formalist; formalist vs. free verse; post-avant vs. quietude; lyric vs. language-based — you know the old binaries that people drag around when they write and talk about poetry. They're like the weather as described by Mark Twain: everybody talks about them, but nobody does anything about them. Until now! The good people at Boston Review (Timothy Donnelly, B.K. Fischer, and David Johnson) have put together a great forum on binary thinking in contemporary poetics, now available online.
Back in May, Boston Review ran a Marjorie Perloff essay called "Poetry on the Brink," which sparked some lively and contentious conversation. Since much of the conversation involved the question of just how useful (or harmful) our old critical binaries were, the editors asked a group of poets and critics to write short essays addressing the question "what is the most significant, troubling, relevant, recalcitrant, misunderstood, or egregious set of opposing terms in discussions about poetics today, and, by extension, what are the limits of binary thinking about poetry?"
Responses came in various forms.
Maureen McLane and Ange Mlinko replied with poems, Mlinko's consisting of a series of rhyming couplets, beginning with: "M.P. is right: much free verse exists to give a pass/to naïfs who only learned of poems from a glass..."
Annie Finch waved the proud banner of poetic meter.
Stephen Burt struck the note of the expert overwhelmed by the plenitude of poetry and poetry-talk (which you may remember from an earlier essay of his). This time he tells us "So many binaries circulate in and around contemporary poems that I find myself running out of Ibuprofen as I pursue the most useful."
DeSales Harrison comes out swinging, saying that Perloff's essay is at times mired in "self-regarding sludge" (I would advise Harrison to shy away from Orono, Buffalo, Louisville, and other stomping grounds of the Perloff enthusiasts for a while).
Matthew Zapruder and Lytton Smith stand up for music, with Zapruder defending song lyrics as poetry and Smith taking issue with the visual/auditory divide.
Sandra Lim reminds us of Matvei Yankelevich's contribution to this discussion.
Katie Degentesh wins the Wicked Wit award for the line "If it’s not a legitimate poem, your body has ways to try to shut that whole thing down."
Dan Beachy-Quick seeks a middle ground between lyricism and the dissolved self; while Noah Eli Gordon notes the conundrum of the poet-professor, drawn to both indeterminacy and clarities more readily adaptable to a pedagogical context. Dorothea Lasky works with a similar division, claiming that "a young poet today, finding his or her own way, must decide to be either a mystic or a scientist."
Samuel Amadon notes that labels tend to be imposed on poets from without, saying "American poetry is littered with schools and movements that no one claims to be a member of."
Cathy Park Hong accuses Perloff of being "disingenuous" in her treatment of poets of color (look out!).
Anthony Madrid, who has a strong claim as the possessor of Best Head of Hair in American Poetry (men's division) decries the insistence that irony and feeling must be at odds with one another.
Rebecca Wolff notes that her journal, Fence, has been interested in the binary question for years.
Evie Shockley dislikes the very idea of binaries, while some guy named Archambeau doesn't want to go without them even though he advises treating them with suspicion and getting promiscuous with the things.
Marjorie Perloff writes a reply in which she addresses various contributions, and manages an answer to DeSales Harrison that deftly sidesteps the issue of sludge.
Wednesday, December 5, 2012
A Week in Samoa
I'm in Samoa - staying with my parents but otherwise completely alone. No Hot Man. No Fabulous Five. I was invited to attend the 2012 SPACLAL Pacific Literature Conference held at the National University of Samoa and I had to give a presentation thingamajig about electronic books and self-publishing and social media etc. It was a great opportunity to meet some amazing Pacific writers...like the Tongan poet Konai Helu Thaman, Samoan poet Rev. Ruperake Petaia, Cook Island poet Audrey Brown Pereira, Fijian poet Darren Kamali and his partner in life and poetry - Grace Taylor. And to re-connect with others who have mentored and inspired me...poet and academic Selina Tusitala Marsh and writer Emma Kruse-Vaai. I just wanted to absorb their creative wonderfulness by being in the same Samoan fale/house with them...but I even got to chat with them...have dinner with them...talk writing with them...fan the same flies away from our lunch...
This was my second SPACLAL conference. Dr Sina Vaai invited me to be on a Writer's Panel at the SPACLAL conference in 2004. I was terrified because I hadnt written any books then and the short stories I HAD written - I was submitting to journals everywhere using different made-up names so nobody would know I'd written such rubbbish. In 2004, I felt like a big fat liar sitting next to REAL writers who were brave enough to write their REAL names on their writing. Fast forward to now. I didnt feel like such a big fat liar. And I even had some books with my REAL name on them. But - it didnt really help. Because I was still terrified. And freaked out about presenting. It didnt help that I wore a stunning puletasi which was so stunning it was a heat trap. And I was sweating in a puddle of humidity. And when I stood up to present, I was soooooo hot that my glasses fogged up. And I couldnt see anybody. And so I had to take them off. And then I REALLY couldnt see anybody. (which was maybe a good thing.) But talking about electronic books and self-publishing was kinda like setting off a bomb in that gathering because lots of the writers present hadnt heard of such stuff and had never considered there might be another way to get their stories out to the world. I left the conference with lots of requests from people wanting to learn more about this publishing avenue.
Some of the highlights of the week for me?
*Meeting Konai Helu Thaman who knocked down many walls for Pacific women writers. Listening to her explain the background inspiration for her poem, 'You the Choice of my Parents' - which tore at my 14yr old heart and fervent imagination when we studied it in English class.
*Hanging out with Selina Tusitala Marsh, the rockstar NZ/Samoan poet who is the coolest, funnest woman in literature. EVER. ( I mean, heck, the woman does kickboxing. And runs half-marathons. And can apppreciate fun, fantasy 'trash' fiction. Can't get much cooler than that!) We bonded over Nalini Singh novels at the last Writers Festival we went to and I had to laugh at her presentation on 'Afakasi Women in Pacific Lit'...because while she included an analysis of my TELESA book, she also livened up everyone's day with lots of cover-pics from Singh's romance/erotica books. Woohoo! (and you thought my book had a hot cover.)
*Listening to Tunumafono Apelu Aiavao, (a silver-haired, very distinguished gentleman) talk poetry. And tell us about 'that night...back in 1970's...when we were having a few drinks together with Konai Helu Thaman...and she danced for us...and I couldnt sleep that night thinking about her beauty...so I wrote a poem about her body and its sensual swaying in the night...' And then reading that poem for us and others. The discussion that followed was a welcome reminder for me that I shouldn't be as freaked out as I have been, about writing about sensuality as a Pacific woman. All these other groundbreaking Pacific writers have been doing it for ages. I don't know if the rules are different for Pacific WOMEN...but be prepared for a lot more 'freedom of expression' in my next books.
*Performing a reading of my blog at the Poetry Evening. I'm a rule breaker who doesnt write poetry so instead I go to a poetry recital and read blog extracts instead. And tell everyone about Skanky Ho's in West Auckland and the sad fact that no, they are not serving Diet coke and Doritos at the gym. It was my first time to do a reading from my blog and it was a blast. I had so much fun with it and the audience seemed to enjoy it as well. Although Rev. Ruperake Petaia was on next after me and he had to say, "I feel like the severe grandfather figure who must tell you all to stop laughing and screaming hysterically and attempt to inject some sombreness and gravity to the occasion" Performing did give me an idea though - I'm going to video more of my blog pieces and get them up on YouTube. (that should really embarass the Fab5. Which of course is always my goal in life.)
*The food. Yeah, yeah, yeah. So I'm superficial like that. But you know me well enough by now to know that everything is about food. The conference was catered by Taro King and they make the bestest refreshments. They even put lolisaiga powder on their fresh pineapple. (Which makes them worthy of celestial honors in my estimation.) My week in Samoa would not have been complete without oka and fried breadfruit from Paddles Restaurant. Sashimi and pok'e from Amanaki Restaurant. Octopus in coconut cream (faiai fe'e) from Netties MiniMart. Cream puffs from PlantationHouse High Tea. Lychee, mangoes and papaya from the trees outside. Bananas in coconut cream (fa'alifu fa'i) from Siaosi's shop. Hunks of hot bread and slabs of melting butter. And keke pua'a. And pineapple pie. Everything tastes better in Samoa. I'm not sure why...
*The creative battery recharge. I savored sunsets on the Apia Harbor seawall. Delighted in sand and sun and the lilting sounds of the ocean. Mused on all the colors of a tropical garden - fiery fuschia, pert pinks, raging reds, solemn greens, velvet purples... Chickens nestled in a cozy cluster on the doorstep. Even the busy heat, dust and dirt of a crowded day in Apia. All of it refreshed and rejuvenated my writing fire. I'm so ready to write write write now...
This was my second SPACLAL conference. Dr Sina Vaai invited me to be on a Writer's Panel at the SPACLAL conference in 2004. I was terrified because I hadnt written any books then and the short stories I HAD written - I was submitting to journals everywhere using different made-up names so nobody would know I'd written such rubbbish. In 2004, I felt like a big fat liar sitting next to REAL writers who were brave enough to write their REAL names on their writing. Fast forward to now. I didnt feel like such a big fat liar. And I even had some books with my REAL name on them. But - it didnt really help. Because I was still terrified. And freaked out about presenting. It didnt help that I wore a stunning puletasi which was so stunning it was a heat trap. And I was sweating in a puddle of humidity. And when I stood up to present, I was soooooo hot that my glasses fogged up. And I couldnt see anybody. And so I had to take them off. And then I REALLY couldnt see anybody. (which was maybe a good thing.) But talking about electronic books and self-publishing was kinda like setting off a bomb in that gathering because lots of the writers present hadnt heard of such stuff and had never considered there might be another way to get their stories out to the world. I left the conference with lots of requests from people wanting to learn more about this publishing avenue.
Some of the highlights of the week for me?
*Meeting Konai Helu Thaman who knocked down many walls for Pacific women writers. Listening to her explain the background inspiration for her poem, 'You the Choice of my Parents' - which tore at my 14yr old heart and fervent imagination when we studied it in English class.
*Hanging out with Selina Tusitala Marsh, the rockstar NZ/Samoan poet who is the coolest, funnest woman in literature. EVER. ( I mean, heck, the woman does kickboxing. And runs half-marathons. And can apppreciate fun, fantasy 'trash' fiction. Can't get much cooler than that!) We bonded over Nalini Singh novels at the last Writers Festival we went to and I had to laugh at her presentation on 'Afakasi Women in Pacific Lit'...because while she included an analysis of my TELESA book, she also livened up everyone's day with lots of cover-pics from Singh's romance/erotica books. Woohoo! (and you thought my book had a hot cover.)
*Listening to Tunumafono Apelu Aiavao, (a silver-haired, very distinguished gentleman) talk poetry. And tell us about 'that night...back in 1970's...when we were having a few drinks together with Konai Helu Thaman...and she danced for us...and I couldnt sleep that night thinking about her beauty...so I wrote a poem about her body and its sensual swaying in the night...' And then reading that poem for us and others. The discussion that followed was a welcome reminder for me that I shouldn't be as freaked out as I have been, about writing about sensuality as a Pacific woman. All these other groundbreaking Pacific writers have been doing it for ages. I don't know if the rules are different for Pacific WOMEN...but be prepared for a lot more 'freedom of expression' in my next books.
*Performing a reading of my blog at the Poetry Evening. I'm a rule breaker who doesnt write poetry so instead I go to a poetry recital and read blog extracts instead. And tell everyone about Skanky Ho's in West Auckland and the sad fact that no, they are not serving Diet coke and Doritos at the gym. It was my first time to do a reading from my blog and it was a blast. I had so much fun with it and the audience seemed to enjoy it as well. Although Rev. Ruperake Petaia was on next after me and he had to say, "I feel like the severe grandfather figure who must tell you all to stop laughing and screaming hysterically and attempt to inject some sombreness and gravity to the occasion" Performing did give me an idea though - I'm going to video more of my blog pieces and get them up on YouTube. (that should really embarass the Fab5. Which of course is always my goal in life.)
*The food. Yeah, yeah, yeah. So I'm superficial like that. But you know me well enough by now to know that everything is about food. The conference was catered by Taro King and they make the bestest refreshments. They even put lolisaiga powder on their fresh pineapple. (Which makes them worthy of celestial honors in my estimation.) My week in Samoa would not have been complete without oka and fried breadfruit from Paddles Restaurant. Sashimi and pok'e from Amanaki Restaurant. Octopus in coconut cream (faiai fe'e) from Netties MiniMart. Cream puffs from PlantationHouse High Tea. Lychee, mangoes and papaya from the trees outside. Bananas in coconut cream (fa'alifu fa'i) from Siaosi's shop. Hunks of hot bread and slabs of melting butter. And keke pua'a. And pineapple pie. Everything tastes better in Samoa. I'm not sure why...
*The creative battery recharge. I savored sunsets on the Apia Harbor seawall. Delighted in sand and sun and the lilting sounds of the ocean. Mused on all the colors of a tropical garden - fiery fuschia, pert pinks, raging reds, solemn greens, velvet purples... Chickens nestled in a cozy cluster on the doorstep. Even the busy heat, dust and dirt of a crowded day in Apia. All of it refreshed and rejuvenated my writing fire. I'm so ready to write write write now...
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